sean ward - poems

as my hearing

fonder now of instrumental music
particularly extended drum beats,
like Fela Kuti, Baaba Maal – since

lyrics of every new or familiar
tune blend contemptuously, inexorably
from polyphony, melody, into

some muddled middle, where voice vanishes
– every song, each voz alta, muffled, submerged,
(a fish in a bowl) straining at foreign

tongues distorted by the curve of a clear
glass prison, and thick liquid atmosphere.
If these ears evolved from aquatic gills,

so I devolve, and the mellifluous
words fade – once minor background sounds now drown
enunciation, articulation,

while anything emphatic or unexpected –
a (startling tap on the glass) anxious
rush, fight or flight – elicited from the

interruption of fierce concentration
to find sentence among the dissonance
(and the whole world darts deftly off, vibrant

as a tuning fork, craving clarity)
where only simple rhythm resonates
(…)

 

Written after a reading and book launch of The Scribbling Cure by Roberto Bonazzi, with Jim LaVilla-Havelin at Bihl Haus in San Antonio, Thursday April 19, 2012.

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JFK: now that you’re covered up

Was it like that?
Pacing scenario after scenario
groupthinking holes in policy limits
forgetting firestorms and mother’s milk
fortified with Strontium 90

Was it like that?
Remembering the mythical god
of the sun in an erupting cone
claiming craters as triumphs
Marilyn’s breasts in your hands

Was it like that?
Stripping the magnate’s daughter
in the backseat of a Lincoln Continental
turning the corner in Dallas
at 11 miles an hour

Was it like that?
When the bullets snapped into you
like you were going to sneeze
and then you didn’t

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interview

…so in the fourth quarter when it seemed the other team was going to hold their lead
for the win and then you made that steal and the fast break for the layup and things
just seemed to fall into place, what was going through your mind at that point? Did
you know you were going to win? Could you feel it?

Well…. I think that… we’re always hopeful for a win and I saw the
opening… and then… you know.

I see… Well, the fans went just a little wild when you went for the basket that third
time and your were only a few points from the tie and then the foul by Kramer….

Yeah well I suppose. You know. Yeah, I mean…. Hoopy.

There must have been a lot of pressure on you to perform on all sides, the fans, the
coach, the other players….

M-hmmmm, uh…. Hoopy hoopy hoopy.
Yes. And with less than a minute to go and hoopy hoopy hoop.

Well, we’re a team, hoopy hoopy hoop hoopy hoop.

Well, ha ha. I think hoopy hoop and hoopy hoopy hoopy.

Hoopy. Hoopy hoopy hoopy.

Hoop. Hoop. Hoopy.

 

Originally published in The Portable Wall 24 (1995): 58. Print.

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Rednecks in Zen*

We was sittin on the porch
outside a Chester’s whittlin
toothpicks outta logs.
I looks at Jake’n says,
What’s up with BobbieSue anyways?

Whatcha mean? (says Jake)

I thought we wuz pretty tight
but but she don’t come round
when she says she’s gonna
an she’s goin out with some other ole boy
I ain’t evenever met.

You say somethin to ‘er bout it?

I called’er thother night, but
she was makin a marble cake
an had to let me go so’s she
could go find some marbles*.

She’s fickle boy!

Fickle? Whaddayathink I orta do?

Well son, know that tractor we got we use
fer hayrides won’t stay in third gear?

Y-eah.

Do we try’n fix it?

Ain’t worth fixin.

Gets the job done anyways, right?

Well, yeah.

Well son, it’s like any piece
of farm equipment–

you gotta let a tractor* be a trractor,
an let a hoe* be a hoe.

*Zen — a school of Buddhism that asserts that enlightenment can be attained through meditation, contemplation, and intuition rather than through scripture
*marbles — small balls used in children’s games
*tractor — an automotive vehicle designed for pulling machinery
*hoe — a tool with a flat blade and a long handle, used for weeding, gardening, cultivating, and gardening

 

Originally published in The Portable Wall

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valve lash

The shop is a man’s place, a lonely place, and
there’s nothing to think about other than the
length of a rod, the way a piston fits a cylinder,
the gap of a plug, the opening and closing of a
diaphragm, the correct order of things, quitting
time, or the hem of a skirt.

The shop is a noisy place, with the hum of the lift
as it raises and lowers, the whir of a socket on an
air-driven drill, the clang of a wrench as it bounces
from concrete, the foul mouths of mechanics with
blood on black knuckles, and the rhythmless crackle
from stereo speakers, attempting to cover the drone
of the shop fans, set high in the walls.

In the shop, things are done by feel, with
fingertips, and by hands with metal extensions:
Unclip valve cover clips. Pry valve cover off.
Ease in feeler gauge. Gauge should slip with a
slight drag. If not, loosen rockerarm nut, tighten
locknut, readjust. Ease in feeler gauge again.
When finished, check gaskets. Spill oil accumulates
in valve covers. If gasket leaks, loss of oil
may be disastrous.

In the shop, an experienced mechanic doesn’t check
the rotor to see if it points to the spark plug
contact of the cylinder of the valves to be
adjusted. He doesn’t remove part of the fan
housing to check the mark to see if the piston
is in the top center of the firing stroke. He
doesn’t start with a cold engine. He turns the
key to start her, to warm her. He listens to her combust
internally, slips the feeler gauge in as slick
fluids flow through her, and sets the valve lash
by her tone and vibration.

In the shop, the only sweet thing is whatever sweet
thing comes through the shop door or passes on the
street. No time is taken to consider Pandora or
Pandora’s box or Eve or an apple or whether or not
the shop’s dog has been named after a saint who is real.
There’s just that whistle or hey baby! Or a tap on the
shoulder and a knowing nod as they break for a moment,
their ratchets in their hands.

If Midas were a mechanic and not a king, everything
he touched would turn to grease and not gold: the
door to his home, the white linen sheets in his bed,
the veiled face of the woman he marries, her heart.
Cupid doesn’t often fire arrows in the catcalls of
oil stained men. Men regarded as thieves. Men
envisioned as remnants of broken dreams with alloy souls
who scrape at their own locked existence in the bowels
of a transmission. Men who might know Blake’s angels,
and for whom the mermaids sometimes sing.

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movement

The neighbor’s dog lifts paw to ear,
scratches at the jeweled movement
of the day, as summer weeds bend slightly,
then stand at ease, and leaves rustle
like golden sleeves of wild Burmese silk.

A lone birdsong, slow, melodic, metronomic,
carries with it the story of us, the
inner workings of our place in this time,
our crescendo, decrescendo, the rise, the
fall, each breath, distinct and forgotten.

You move me, in ways I am not prepared
to move, in ways I am afraid to go, yet
I grow the way an oak grows, and shed
skin like leaves to welcome your
feathered touch among my boughs.

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